So I was going to try and fast for the day but that ended earlier than I expected when my 1 year old put his granola in my mouth and I ate it without realizing it. So I will try it again later this week.
The reason for my wanting to fast is that I am seeking my purpose. I am lost on what I am supposed to be fulfilling for God at this point in my life. In the last 2 years of my life I have made some wrong choices. So at some point in my life I went down a path that I normally would not have. I am trying to learn from this and make things better but I honestly do not think that it is working. I seeking to find the next step I am supposed to take in my life right now and not in the future.
A lot of things are hanging in the air for me; like what should I do about school?, what do I do about this relationship with my son's father and where is that going, and I am seeking spiritual fulfillment because it seems like I am a shadow drifting in this world. As I would like to remove the issues that I am having with my family because none of them are communicating with me and it's tearing me apart because I do not know what is going on or if something is being planned against me. The later of that I should not worry about because no weapons form against me, my son, or my niece shall prosper.
In my fast and throughout this week I will be praying for my friend. She is under a lot of stress and I hope that maybe my prayers will open up something good for her. I will also pray that I can truly be able to forgive because there are some things eating me alive inside and no one but God knows what they are and I hope to remove these feelings that I have and had been feeling.
"And whoever compels you to go one mile, go with him two"- Matt 5:41
