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Wednesday, July 9, 2008

1st Goal

After talking with the reverend tonight my first goal is to get myself right with God and to ask him to lead me in my relationships. Apparently I'm supposed to be in this relationship with this guy when I don't want to.

I think that this will be a hard thing for me to do because I've let me guard down too many times and I feel that I have been stupid in the matters of the heart for far too long.

The only thing that I can agree upon thus far is that none of the relationships that I have been in had nothing to do with God and when I became interested in following God the supposed other half didn't want to participate. With the current fellow there was some sort of participation but it seemed like a joke.

But since people think that he is sincere about being on the right path then I should bring myself to the correct path in order to maintain my good graces with God. And yes I do want to remain in God's good graces because at this point in my life I could be in far worse situations than I am now.

10 Commandments

So as I'm on this new path for spiritual fulfillment I was inspired to write a poem based on the ten commandments. Thus far I think that things will be going ok as long as I can continue reading to some more stimulating readings in my bible.

Monday, July 7, 2008

After the Fast

Ok it has been about a week since I fasted for two straight days. I think I got what I wanted out of it. I was not as specific as I should have been but I got somethings accomplished.

I went on a Bible shopping spree afterwards. I have a study bible and will be purchasing another called the Life Application Study bible. Other than that I upgraded my bible from a teen King James version to a New Living Translation version. I also have a bible dictionary, a bible companion, and a bible that contains 4 other versions of the bible. I will be looking into purchasing the Geneva Bible and the Lost books of the bible.

The fast couldn't come at a better time, Vacation Bible Study. At least during that time I was not reading I was studying for bible study.

Out of all this I find myself seeking knowledge and finding a way to use this knowledge.

I prayed for me to be able to turn my life around and get on the right path. I am looking for my purpose so that I can start fulfilling my purpose. I am not a person that like to sit around lost. So I need some spiritual fulfillment at the moment.

I had also had a question about being a minister. Because what will I do after obtaining all of this knowledge? I don't know but I do know that I'm not supposed to keep it to myself and that I'm supposed to share this with others.

I have yet to give my testimony because I've been afraid of what I've been through won't help anyone else. But I have been wrong in this. So I will try and share what is needed and what will help.